Work, life and things in between-Day 35-Somebody’s someone!
Now, here is a novelty. Something I have not experienced in years. As Tem’s business day comes to an end, we gather with his colleagues for cocktail and dinner.
I am here as his spouse. I am his spouse because among this group, I am not known otherwise. Now, I know this is not any different than any spouse attending any social functions…however, this had not happened to me for years and quite frankly I had not missed being introduced as someone else’s somebody!
Luckily, this group is a very nice and very interesting group, so it is not about them. It is about me looking at them from the angle of someone who has just lost a big chunk of her identity. I am fresh out of a job and have not figured out yet how to present myself when there is no job associated to me.
This may sound pathetic but among a crowd whose job is at a minimum very, very significant, it is hard to define yourself otherwise. I had learned to deal with this in my early years of marriage and motherhood but now, I am totally out of practice.
Mostly what this tells me is that I miss that aspect of my job.
Of course, I don’t think anybody minded what I did or did not do. They were just here for a good time. The issue is mine. Entirely.
This however rings a warning bell in my head. There is more to the Corporate job than just the paycheck and the board meetings. There is all the status that comes with it.
Is this Ego? Is this pride? Or simply yet another adjustment? Whatever it is, I would lie if I pretended it does not require some taming. More to come I am sure.Now, here is a novelty. Something I have not experienced in years. As Tem’s business day comes to an end, we gather with his colleagues for cocktail and dinner.
I am here as his spouse. I am his spouse because among this group, I am not known otherwise. Now, I know this is not any different than any spouse attending any social functions…however, this had not happened to me for years and quite frankly I had not missed being introduced as someone else’s somebody!
Luckily, this group is a very nice and very interesting group, so it is not about them. It is about me looking at them from the angle of someone who has just lost a big chunk of her identity. I am fresh out of a job and have not figured out yet how to present myself when there is no job associated to me.
This may sound pathetic but among a crowd whose job is at a minimum very, very significant, it is hard to define yourself otherwise. I had learned to deal with this in my early years of marriage and motherhood but now, I am totally out of practice.
Mostly what this tells me is that I miss that aspect of my job.
Of course, I don’t think anybody minded what I did or did not do. They were just here for a good time. The issue is mine. Entirely.
This however rings a warning bell in my head. There is more to the Corporate job than just the paycheck and the board meetings. There is all the status that comes with it.
Is this Ego? Is this pride? Or simply yet another adjustment? Whatever it is, I would lie if I pretended it does not require some taming. More to come I am sure.